Sunday, July 3, 2016

Finding God

Mandy Steward writes in Thrashing About with God about how she heard from God in her own conversation with her daughter:

“I will send you love letters under the door that tell you how much I love you... I felt God saying to me, 'This is what I do for you.' ... Little love notes that sometimes I can’t be sure were from God or me doing something kind for myself. But does it matter? If I’m able to feel love now when the unloved moments hit, I don’t care if I’m confused about its source. God is love, so wherever love flocks to, He must be a part of it" (82-83).

As I finished reading the chapter in tears and set the book down, I realized that the song coming through my earbuds was Selah singing "O the Deep, Deep Love of Jesus." 

God often slips in incognito. Sometimes I see Him and sometimes I don't. Sometimes I'm more desperate to see Him, though I'm not sure that is the determining factor in whether He appears or not. But maybe it makes me slightly more attuned to His presence. After all, why would I see Him if I'm not looking? And this visit came at a time when I was desperate for God. 

I've been working through Ephesians one verse at a time, and I recently read 1:18 (ESV) "having the eyes of your heart enlightened, that you may know what is the hope to which He has called you, what are the riches of His glorious inheritance in the saints." This has been part of my prayer lately. 

There have been many distractions from the world, the flesh, and the devil. Inconsequential things and even good things have kept me from seeing God, what He is doing, and the hope to which He has called me. I want to be so enamored with Him and so attentive to His presence that I see nothing else. I want Him to burn away all the chaff, and put all other things in their proper place of subordination.

I don't want to realize one day that I've stopped looking for Him because I've gotten too busy, too distracted, or too tangled up in sin. I want Him to keep the eyes of my heart open to see Him and receive His love notes every day. 

"O the deep, deep love of Jesus,
Vast, unmeasured, boundless, free,
Rolling as a mighty ocean
In its fullness over me. 
Underneath me, all around me,
Is the current of Thy grace;
Leading onward, leading homeward
'Til I see Thy glorious face."
(Public domain, altered.)



© Dawn Rutan 2016

Friday, July 1, 2016

Who Gets the Glory?

I’ve spent several days in Ephesians 1 lately, and I noticed that Paul makes frequent references to God’s glory:
  • 6- “…to the praise of His glorious grace, with which He has blessed us in the Beloved” (ESV).
  • 12- “…so that we who were the first to hope in Christ might be to the praise of His glory.”
  • 14- “…who is the guarantee of our inheritance until we acquire possession of it, to the praise of His glory.”
  • 18- “…what are the riches of His glorious inheritance in the saints.”

Since God’s glory is the reason for our election, sanctification, and future hope, how then do we live “to the praise of His glory”? In a sermon on Ephesians 1, John Piper commented “God adopted us in our unworthiness to make His glory look great.” God’s glory is displayed in the grace and mercy that He extends to unworthy people.

I wonder if we in the church have forgotten what it is that glorifies God the most? We look for numerical growth, relational depth, pursuit of spiritual disciplines, etc. All of those are good things that can glorify God, but are they the primary thing? Perhaps we need to be looking for people who are weak enough and desperate enough to say “I can’t do this on my own; only Christ can do it in me.” Maybe God’s glory is better seen in our humility and weakness than in our strength and progress. We are small, weak, dependent, and faltering, but His strength is perfect.

Jesus said, “Apart from Me you can do nothing” (John 15:5). Paul was told, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness” (2 Corinthians 12:9). Paul also wrote, “For the foolishness of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men” (1 Corinthians 1:25). Why is it then that we are so reluctant to expose our weakness, either individually or as a body? Is God glorified more by the perfect record of a person who is no longer tempted in a particular way, or by one who falls periodically but is learning to depend on God for grace and mercy? Jesus said, “There will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who need no repentance” (Luke 15:7).

And in the Body, why do we compare church size and programs as a measure of our worth? Is God not glorified more by a small group of people who are relying on Him desperately than by a large group who can get along without His intervention? I’m reminded of Gideon and the army that God pared down to 300 warriors “lest Israel boast over Me, saying ‘My own hand has saved me’” (Judges 7:2).

Pride can trip us up every time. As individuals we want to appear like we have it all together, like we’ve overcome sin and have no faith struggles. As churches we think that growing numbers and visible activities are signs of vitality. But what do we really have to boast about? God is the One who saved us, and He’s the One who causes us to grow in faith. We were dead, but He made us alive in Christ (Ephesians 2:5). When our faith fails, He remains faithful (2 Timothy 2:13).

 “Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me” (2 Corinthians 12:9b).




© 2016 Dawn Rutan. 

Friday, June 24, 2016

God Is Not American

I hate to discuss politics and government, and this year is the worst. It crossed my mind this week that God’s purpose for the United States and the world in general is not “life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness” or even “one nation under God.” He is not in the business of promoting earthly comfort, prosperity, or human rights. The stock market is irrelevant, freedom of religion is an anomaly, and legislation is a poor attempt to control sin.

God’s purpose is not cultural reformation, but individual transformation. Cultural reforms can only address superficial behaviors. Only God can change hearts. God’s purpose is that people would come to faith in Him for salvation, sanctification, and eternal life. And His purpose for believers is that we will be conformed to the image of His Son (Romans 8:28-29) and will make disciples (Matthew 28:18-20), looking forward to that Day when He will “unite all things in Him, things in heaven and things on earth” (Ephesians 1:10 ESV).

In one sense, it doesn’t really matter who you plan to vote for (but please vote). God is in control and His purpose will prevail regardless of who is elected. “But for this purpose I have raised you [Pharaoh] up, to show you My power, so that My name may be proclaimed in all the earth” (Exodus 9:16). “The Lord has made everything for its purpose, even the wicked for the day of trouble” (Proverbs 16:4). It may be that God is lining up the players for the last scene of this drama called life. We already know that things are going to get worse before the Day of Judgment comes. To think that any elected official can “turn things around” long term is to ignore the overarching narrative of Scripture.

So as we wait out the election season, although I would like to pray for godly people to be elected, my real prayer is that God will spur His children on to love and good deeds, that the Body of Christ will be united under our true Head, and that God will be glorified by those who choose to follow Him no matter what may come.

“For the grace of God has appeared, bringing salvation for all people, training us to renounce ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright, and godly lives in the present age, waiting for our blessed hope, the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior Jesus Christ, who gave Himself for us to redeem us from all lawlessness and to purify for Himself a people for His own possession who are zealous for good works” (Titus 2:11-14).




© 2016 Dawn Rutan. 

Tuesday, June 21, 2016

Paths of Grace

Sometimes having a vivid imagination can be both a blessing and a torment. Recently I was imagining a particular “what if” scenario, thinking about what life would be like now if something had been different in the past. In the process I realized that I would be faced with a very difficult and painful decision if that had been the case, so I am thankful that God’s grace protected me from following that particular path. There are a few situations that come to mind that are like that, some of which were more likely to happen than others.
Thinking of Robert Frost’s poem, life isn’t just two roads diverging, but thousands of roads leading on to thousands of other roads. We have no way of knowing where these roads will lead over the course of a lifetime. Some choices are clearly right or wrong, while others have no moral implications at all. Most roads are somewhere in the middle of that spectrum. As we look back over a lifetime of choices, we can see how one way led on to another to get us where we are today. And if those choices have been made with God’s guidance, we can see how He has made a straight path out of what seemed like a very circuitous route.
That’s an aspect of God’s grace that we may not always see or appreciate. We can agree with the Garth Brooks song, “Sometimes I Thank God for Unanswered Prayers,” but I wonder how many times God has intervened in ways that we never even know about? We may discover them later, like the car accident we avoided because we had a dead battery, or like the “what ifs” I imagined playing out, but many we may never discover. Perhaps part of eternity will be the revelation of all the ways God intervened in our lives. That would certainly give us reason to glorify God as we say, “Thank You for not letting me go there!” Of course, we don’t have to wait for eternity to express our thanks for God’s intervention.
There are also times we wish God had intervened, but for whatever reason He did not. Even though some of the paths we’ve traversed may have been difficult ones, where would we be today if we had not gone that direction? How have those difficult roads shaped our character and strengthened our faith in ways that easier roads would not? I was wrestling with this last night and questioning why God allowed certain circumstances in my life that were not pleasant and seemed to me to be detrimental to His purposes. In fact, in reviewing the first several verses of Ephesians 1, I felt that God’s grace wasn’t all that lavish sometimes. I had to return to a quote I’d encountered earlier in the day in a novel by Michael Phillips that I’m reading:
“People can be bitter over their marks of individuality. Or they can be thankful and let God use them to deepen compassion and character within them. I believe you are a better and more understanding and compassionate person because of the way God made you… [Y]ou really can thank God… because it has helped form your character inside… I love you so much! How could God not love you infinitely more than I do?”
It’s not always easy to find reasons to be thankful for circumstances we don’t understand. How can we wrap our minds around the idea of God’s lavish grace when life is painful and nothing makes sense? Eventually it comes down to a question of faith—do I trust Him with what I can’t yet see? Along the way, questions may be unanswered and emotions will rise, but God never changes. He can handle our questions and doubts, our fear and anger. Another character in the same book says:
“Asking God why things happen is, it seems to me, an integral part of what it means for a mortal to walk in faith, for we wouldn’t ask if we didn’t have faith that God knows the answer! But we do not see as God does. Much appears evil and unfair to our obscured sight. But we are nevertheless commanded to walk in faith, trusting in his sight more than we trust in our own. We can and perhaps should ask him why, as long as we trust him even when answers may be slow to come… God’s goodness is and must remain the foundation. With the underpinnings of goodness and trustworthiness solid, any number of questions, even doubts, even crying angrily to God as Job did—all these are allowed.”
So whether your paths are pleasant or painful, whether they divert you from disaster or take you through the valley of the shadow of death, thank God for His loving kindness and lavish grace. One day everything that is now hidden from us will be brought to light, and God’s glory will be fully revealed.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths” (Proverbs 3:5-6 ESV).

© 2016 Dawn Rutan. 

Wednesday, June 15, 2016

You Are More

This weekend I was reading a couple different books that used the same phrase. The first was a novel by Marianne Evans, in which a character said that her infertility made her feel “less than.” In comparing herself to others, she felt she came up short every time. Mary DeMuth reflected the same feelings in Live Uncaged as she evaluated herself after a history of sexual abuse. Perhaps you’ve felt that way as well. I know I have. It may not be infertility or abuse that color our self-perception. Things that make us feel less can include:
  • Lack of education or experience
  • Being unmarried or separated
  • Children who have strayed
  • Loss of a job or home
  • Health concerns
  • Criticism from others
  • Body size or shape
  • Lack of skills (social, artistic, sports, etc.)
  • Not matching cultural stereotypes

…and the list goes on. Any area in which we judge others is an area in which we can feel “less than.” Sometimes other people try to label us as inferior, but we often do it to ourselves as well.
God wants to remind us “You are more!” More than the sum of our abilities or lack thereof; more than our education and skills; more than the roles we take on as spouses, parents, employees, ministers; more than our accomplishments or our failures. The song “You Are More” by Tenth Avenue North is a great reminder that our value is not determined by what we do, but by the One who chose us as His own.

As our church was reminded in Sunday’s sermon on 1 Corinthians 4:1-13, human judgment is superficial. While it is easy to say we shouldn’t judge others (and in fact we get judgmental about judgmentalism), it’s not always so easy to deflect the judgment we heap on ourselves for our perceived inadequacies and failures. Most of our supposed shortcomings probably aren’t even known to anyone else, but we berate ourselves anyway. Mary DeMuth shared what her husband told her, “Mary, I would never treat you that way, and you wouldn’t treat others that way. Why in the world would you treat yourself like that?”

Even as I was planning to write this post I found myself thinking, “Why am I such an idiot?! I deserve ___!” God had to remind me once again “You are more than the sum of your past or present mistakes.” Mary put it this way:
  • “You are not the person devalued by others’ casual opinions.
  • You are not the sum of your righteous (or unrighteous) acts.
  • You are not a thing to be consumed or used.
  • You are not small and unworthy.
  • You are not insignificant.
  • You are not deserving of deceit.
  • You are not the words spoken over you.
  • You are not what they say you are.
You are who He says you are:
Beloved.
Welcomed.
Cherished.
Powerfully weak.
Beautifully rejuvenated.
Whole.”


The music video of Jason Gray’s song “Remind Me Who I Am” is a testimony to the power of God’s truth in our lives. No matter what label we think we deserve, God reminds us we are His beloved children. Even if He has to remind us every day, He is delighted to do so to keep us from being overwhelmed by the lies.

“I am my beloved’s and His desire is for me” (Song of Solomon 7:10 ESV).



© 2016 Dawn Rutan. 

Monday, June 13, 2016

Forgiveness With a Purpose

I wasn't planning to write anything tonight, but I found myself startled by Scripture and needed to share what I found. 

I was praying through Psalm 51 when I took particular notice of the sequence of events. Confession and repentance lead to forgiveness and restoration, but it doesn't end there. David clearly states that if sacrifices would do any good he would make them. Instead, he says, the fact of his forgiveness will cause him to share the good news with others. His testimony becomes the grounds for sinners to learn about God's love and mercy. 

Sacrifices, offerings, and penance don't accomplish anything because Jesus was the last sacrifice that was needed. Further sacrifices are not only unnecessary, but they keep us from quickly claiming the forgiveness and cleansing that is already ours in Christ (1 John 1:9). If we will instead move forward in declaring God's praise, then we can "teach transgressors Your ways and sinners will return to You" (v. 13 ESV). We can declare with confidence "Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteousness man his thoughts; let him return to the Lord, that He may have compassion on him, and to our God, for He will abundantly pardon" (Isaiah 55:7).

John Piper would call this "gutsy guilt"-- fully believing what God says is true of our forgiveness and freedom in Christ so that we don't get bogged down by guilt and we can keep moving forward in ministry.

So, I'll join David in saying yes, "I know my transgression and my sin is ever before me," but because of Christ I am forgiven (Colossians 2:13-14), I am not condemned (Romans 8:1), and nothing can separate me from His love (Romans 8:39). I want others to know that assurance as well. 

"Rejoice not over me, O my enemy; when I fall, I shall rise; when I sit in darkness, the Lord will be a light to me" (Micah 7:8).


© Dawn Rutan 2016

Thursday, June 9, 2016

Chew on This

Last night I read Amos 8:11, which at some point I had underlined in my Bible: “‘Behold the days are coming,’ declares the Lord God, ‘when I will send a famine on the land—not a famine of bread, nor a thirst for water, but of hearing the words of the Lord’” (ESV). While this prophecy had an immediate application for Israel in that age, I think we can see some signs of the famine today as well. “For the time is coming when people will not endure sound teaching, but having itching ears they will accumulate for themselves teachers to suit their own passions, and will turn away from listening to the truth and wander off into myths” (2 Timothy 4:3-4).

The difference now seems to be that people don’t know they are starving. Like a person dying from lack of a certain nutrient, they don’t know how sick they are. They are filling up on spiritual junk food. Many who go to church don’t realize that they are not hearing the words of the Lord. The message sounds nice and makes them feel good, but it has no nutritional value for spiritual growth. Many others go to church and take in good content, but they never allow it to digest and take effect in their lives. They never move beyond their need to be spoon-fed.

I’ve heard “sermons” that had no scriptural content. I’ve heard others that I’m still chewing on long afterward. I don’t want to find my spiritual growth lagging or declining because of a famine of the Word. One necessary “treatment” for this condition is getting into the Word for myself. An article today on the Desiring God blog asks, “What if you had to pay five dollars every time you read your Bible? What would your Bible budget be this month?” I suspect most of us would come in under budget every month. Studying Scripture regularly not only contributes to spiritual growth, but it protects against the lies and fluff that are promulgated from so many sources.

The other essential ingredient is to pray both for the people preaching or teaching the Word of God in my local church and for my own receptivity to the Word. I know there have been many times when I have attended church prayerlessly and have gotten nothing out of the message. Sometimes the person behind the pulpit has not delivered the Word, but I have been equally guilty in not hearing the Word. If there is a single sentence of Scripture shared, there is something worth thinking about. The rest of the sermon may be meaningless babble, but God’s Word is never empty (Isaiah 55:11) and is always profitable (2 Timothy 3:16). Prayer may not improve the way a message is delivered, but it can certainly change the way I listen. Alistair Begg said this week,

“I can preach the same sermons if you would pray harder and they will be ten times more effective… Because for a meaningful preaching event, you need an expectant, praying preacher, and you need an expectant, praying congregation. And when the expectations meet at the throne of grace whereby both preacher and listener are looking to God rather than one another then suddenly there’s a divine chemistry that takes place there.”

That is a convicting thought. How many church members would be strengthened by prayerful listening to the Word of God? How many churches would be greatly improved by just a few more people praying for their pastor? How many church conflicts could be avoided if people chose to pray rather than complain?

Lord, forgive me for taking Your Word for granted. Forgive me for settling for spiritual junk food. Forgive me for failing to pray consistently for myself and for my pastor. “Open my eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of Your law… I will never forget Your precepts, for by them You have given me life… I open my mouth and pant, because I long for Your commandments… Let my soul live and praise You, and let Your rules help me” (Psalm 119:18, 93, 131, 175).


© 2016 Dawn Rutan.