Losing It

 Jen Oshman writes in Enough About Me:

“The cultural air we breathe fills us with optimism. And so we take deep breaths, and we keep running for the goal. Create your own destiny. You be you. Reach for the stars. You can be a self-made woman. You are in charge of your own happiness. You get what you give. Never let them see you sweat. Follow your dreams. Make it happen. You are enough… Almost without exception and as if on cue, we reach the end of ourselves. The coffee cup is empty. The self-talk grows quiet. We collapse on the couch. We are tired. This isn’t working. Someone send help” (26-27).

While other Christian authors are trying to tell us we’re “exactly enough” and “find your best life now,” Scripture presents a different picture. In the Apostle Paul’s letters we read:

“God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong… so that no human being might boast in the presence of God… ‘Let the one who boasts, boast in the Lord” (1 Corinthians 1:27, 29, 31 ESV; see also 2 Cor. 10:13-18).

“Such is the confidence that we have through Christ toward God. Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God” (2 Cor. 3:4-5).

“But [God] said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me” (2 Cor. 12:9).

And our Lord Jesus Himself said, “If anyone would come after Me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow Me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake and the gospel’s will save it” (Mark 8:34-35). Taking up your cross daily sounds a lot different than “become the best you you can be.” And praying “give us this day our daily bread” (Matthew 6:11) is a picture of dependency, not accomplishment. Oshman goes on:

“Undoubtedly you’ve heard the comforting American quip, God never gives us more than we can handle. And perhaps you’ve thought to yourself, Really? Because this feels like a lot more than I can handle. I’m with you—in my experience, God often gives us way more than we’re comfortable with, so that we might cry out to him… This turning to God is a sort of death. We ultimately realize we cannot handle ourselves, our souls, our futures, our contentment. We need something. Someone, outside of ourselves. We need our Creator who is also our Redeemer, our rescuer, our load bearer” (66).

I don’t know about anyone else, but I am frequently reminded of my inadequacy and weaknesses. I can’t do all I need to do and all I want to do, and I can’t be anything I want to be. Years ago I read that the cross we each must bear is our own weakness in all its forms—unfulfilled desires, temptations, physical and mental limitations, lack of abilities and opportunities. It is perhaps the antithesis of the American dream.

There is no strength to be found by “believing in yourself.” Freedom doesn’t come from being self-accepting and authentic. Rather, strength and freedom are found in Christ alone as we rely on Him to accomplish His work in and through us. The Christian life is not about maximizing our potential but resting in Christ—not what I can do but what He has done. Denying myself and losing my life means letting go of what I want and think I need and embracing whatever God supplies. And it’s not just sinful desires that must be surrendered either—there are many good desires that God will not fulfill in this lifetime. Each of us probably have things that we wish were different in our lives and we may even be praying for God to change them, but He may be saying “My grace is sufficient, just trust Me.”

I can’t change myself or my world, but I can choose to trust the One who is in control of all things. I can’t pull myself up by my own bootstraps, but I can believe in the One who upholds me by His hand.

“I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me… And my God will supply every need of yours according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:12-13, 19).

© 2020 Dawn Rutan. Unless otherwise indicated all images are copyright free from pixabay.com. The opinions stated do not necessarily reflect the views of my church or employer.

In Dependence

I don’t know how many people use the M’Cheyne Bible Reading Plan. This is the first year I’ve used it in a long time. In the readings for March 16 I noticed something curious. In John 6:63 Jesus said, “It is the Spirit who gives life; the flesh is no help at all” (ESV). Then in Galatians 2 Paul wrote that those “who seemed influential added nothing to me. On the contrary… He who worked through Peter for his apostolic ministry to the circumcised worked also through me for mine to the Gentiles” (6-8). Wait a second—who were Peter and Paul? The ESV Study Bible describes Peter as a “middle-class fisherman who very likely knew Greek from his youth” (2402). Paul (Saul) was a Jew educated under Gamaliel (Acts 22:3). So the fisherman was sent with the gospel to the Jews and the educated Jew was sent to the Gentiles. It appears that God intentionally sent them outside their comfort zones so that they would have to rely on Him and not on their own abilities.

Paul was eager to set aside his accomplishments as zealous Jew— “But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ” (Philippians 3:7). Though his education did aid him in his teaching and writing, he learned that human strength and ingenuity wouldn’t accomplish the ministry he was given. “If I must boast, I will boast of the things that show my weakness” (2 Corinthians 11:30). Peter proclaimed that “His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of Him who called us to His own glory and excellence” (2 Peter 1:3). All that he needed came from God, not from his own efforts.

The same is true for us. We tend to think that we are saved by grace but then everything else is up to us. Watchman Nee, though not the best of theologians, was correct in writing, “The Christian life from start to finish is based upon this principle of utter dependence upon the Lord Jesus.” As soon as we rely on ourselves for anything, we are on thin ice.

J. C. Ryle wrote in The Cross: Crucified with Christ, and Christ Alive in Me:

“…no minister, no layman—no one man could ever be named who did so many good works as the apostle Paul. But did he ever glory in them as if they were in the least meritorious and could save his soul? Never! Never for one moment!

“…Who is there among the readers of this book that trusts in his church membership for salvation? Who values himself on his baptism, his attendance at the Lord’s Table, his church attendance on Sundays, or his daily services during the week and says to himself, ‘What do I lack?’ Learn today that you are not like Paul. Your Christianity is not the Christianity of the New Testament. Paul would not glory in anything but the cross. Neither should you…

“Work for God and Christ with heart and soul and mind and strength, but never dream for a second of placing confidence in any work of your own” (ch. 1).

Everything that reveals our weakness is an opportunity to remember God’s perfect strength. Even our abilities and strengths will come to an end sooner or later, but His never will. That way God is the One to get all the glory, which is the way it’s supposed to be.

“Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you unless you abide in Me” (John 15:4).

© 2020 Dawn Rutan. Unless otherwise indicated all images are copyright free from pixabay.com. The opinions stated do not necessarily reflect the views of my church or employer.

A Change of Mind

I came across this quote in Sheila Walsh’s book It’s Okay Not to Be Okay. In regards to Romans 12:1-2 she says:

“You might be tempted to ask, ‘What’s wrong with my mind?’ You’re smart, well educated, and computer savvy, with endless information at your fingertips—quite different than the audience Paul wrote to. The problem is not a lack of information; it’s a lack of renewal. We live in a fallen world, which means our minds are fallen too. We were made to worship, but unless our minds have been renewed, we don’t worship God, we worship what we want. The question remains, How do you renew your mind? The word renewal found in Romans 12:2 occurs only one other place in the Greek New Testament [in Titus 3:5], and it gives me great hope that this process is not something you and I can do by ourselves. We can’t. We need the Holy Spirit.”

She’s right—we can’t renew our own minds. Another sermon, another Bible study, another Sunday school class won’t cause us to be “transformed by the renewal of [our] mind” apart from the sovereign work of the Holy Spirit. As our pastor often reminds us, this is supernatural stuff we’re dealing with. We need to pray for ourselves and for our friends and family that God will do the work in our hearts and minds to make us receptive to His Word.

There are people who might be considered experts in the Scriptures. A recent book review on The Gospel Coalition raised the question of whether we can benefit from a non-Christian’s translation and commentary on the Old Testament. The answer is only to a limited extent. Without the work of God to connect us to the Messiah revealed throughout Scripture, all we are gaining is head knowledge. There are plenty of other people who struggle to read and understand the words in their Bibles, but they absorb all that they can because God has given them a thirst for Himself.

As we think about the programs and events we offer through our church, we need to bathe them in prayer, asking for the Holy Spirit to guide us to the right programs and the right message, but more importantly to work in the hearts of those who might attend. It is easy to get into a routine of doing the same things we’ve always done and not praying about it. We may wonder why people aren’t engaged in learning or why they seem so lackadaisical about their faith. But are we actually praying specifically for God to work in them? It doesn’t work to provide information without transformation by the Spirit. Certainly there are things we can do or not do that may facilitate learning, but the best teaching in the world will not change hearts or transform lives.

I’ve been convicted about this lately, because I can become judgmental about people who may not be at the same point in their walk with God. But as I look back over my own life, I remember the times when I was relatively disengaged from church and resistant toward where God was leading me. I had plenty of Bible knowledge, but it took a work of God to change my heart. Now I need to be reminded to pray for such a work in others’ lives.

So long as we are operating in our own strength and wisdom, we shouldn’t expect God to bless our efforts. I see an awful lot of churches that appear to be just going through the motions without really seeking God’s will and without praying for God’s work in individuals. Our fruitfulness is dependent on God’s power. Let us be diligent in praying for hearts and minds to be transformed and for lives that will abide in the Vine.

“I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in Me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing” (John 15:5 ESV).

© 2019 Dawn Rutan. Unless otherwise indicated all images are copyright free from pixabay.com. The opinions stated do not necessarily reflect the views of my church or employer.

Non-Independence Day

I was just thinking about this verse from John 21:18 (ESV) "Truly, truly, I say to you, when you were young, you used to dress yourself and walk wherever you wanted, but when you are old, you will stretch out your hands, and another will dress you and carry you where you do not want to go.” 

My first thought was that when we're really young, we are dressed and carried by others. As we get a little older we get more freedom and control to a certain degree before the process reverses itself. But in reality, there is very little of life that is truly autonomous. Even the supposedly independent years are controlled by schedules, employers, finances, family needs, health, etc. We're constantly being carried where we do not want to go. 

Ironically, trust seems to be inversely correlated to independence. A small child trusts her parents to do all the things that she cannot do for herself. An aging adult learns to trust those who are his caregivers. In between, ideas of independence lead us to rely on ourselves for everything. We tend not to trust others and we feel ashamed if we do need help. (Just try exercising your independence when you're laying in a hospital bed hooked up to IVs!) Psychologists sometimes refer to three stages of human development as being: dependence, independence, and interdependence. I think that model may be highly influenced by Western culture.

Dana Yeakley writes in The Gentle Art of Discipling Women, "We need to recognize this: we are never in control, we were never in control, and we will never be in control. We completely deny this when things are going well. We simply do not recognize how out of control we actually are. And usually when complications arise we hope to 'regain' some control. Interesting, isn't it? The fact is that we were never in control even when life was 'normal'" (27).

There are many times in Scripture when God leads people through places they'd rather not go: out of the Garden of Eden (Genesis 3:24), to an unknown land (Genesis 12:1), into Egypt (Genesis 37:28), out of Egypt and across the Red Sea (Exodus 14:11), around the wilderness (Exodus 16:3), through the valley of the shadow of death (Psalm 23), to Nineveh (Jonah), into the wilderness to be tempted (Mark 1:12), through Samaria (John 4:4), through the storm (Matthew 8:23)... The list goes on. The unifying reason behind each those excursions was that people would learn to trust God as the One who provides and guides. His plan for His children includes a lot more than just enjoying a comfortable life. 

The question is, how long will it take to admit our dependence and learn to trust God and one another? It seems to be a lifelong process that we often fight to the bitter end. Jesus challenges us to have faith like a little child--not naive or ignorant, but trusting that the Father always knows and does what is best. 

“Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.  Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven" (Matthew 18:3-4). 

© Dawn Rutan 2016.