There’s a hymn that has been going through my mind for
several days now, “I Then Shall Live” by Gloria Gaither (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lsq3aDNhZIQ).
The first verse starts “I then shall live as
one who’s been forgiven...”
It got me thinking—what exactly does it mean to live as one
who’s been forgiven, and how do we learn to do that? Interestingly, the tune of
the song is the same as that of “Be Still, My Soul,” which perhaps answers some
of my questions:
Be still, my soul!
The Lord is on your side:
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to your God to order and provide;
In every change He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul! Your best, your heavenly Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to your God to order and provide;
In every change He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul! Your best, your heavenly Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.
I won’t quote all the verses, but they are a powerful
reminder of God’s presence, provision, and protection. Living and walking in
forgiveness seems to depend greatly on believing that God is who He says He is—that
He really has forgiven, He is in control, and He will guide. The more we
believe and trust God, the easier it becomes to be still and rest in His
forgiveness.
Certainly there are things we can do to foster our faith:
through spending time in reading Scripture and hearing it explained, prayer,
worship, fellowship, and discipleship. I think the challenge is that as our
faith grows, so does the opposition we face from the enemy. We have a real
enemy who would like to see us abandon our faith, and he’ll stop at nothing to
make us think we are unforgiven, beyond help, and hopeless. Our main defense
against his attacks is the same one Jesus used when facing temptation:
Scripture. Without that as our foundation, we will be blown about “by every
wind of doctrine, by human cunning, by craftiness in deceitful schemes” of our
enemy (Ephesians 4:14 ESV).
Where I come up against it is in dealing with unpredictable
emotions (thanks depression!). It is easy to give in to negative feelings and
let them lead to negative thoughts rather than trying to remember the truths of
Scripture and following them to the fruit of joy and peace. Martyn Lloyd-Jones
makes a good point in his book Spiritual
Depression:
“Have you realized that most of
your unhappiness in life is due to the fact that you are listening to yourself
instead of talking to yourself? Take those thoughts that come to you the moment
you wake up in the morning. You have not originated them but they are talking
to you, they bring back the problems of yesterday, etc. Somebody is talking.
Who is talking to you? Your self is talking to you. Now this man’s treatment
[in Psalm 42] was this: instead of allowing this self to talk to him, he starts
talking to himself. ‘Why art thou cast down, O my soul?’ he asks. His soul had
been depressing him, crushing him. So he stands up and says, ‘Self, listen for
moment, I will speak to you.’”
The prophet Habakkuk says something similar. After
complaining to God and questioning His plan for two chapters, he begins praying
and remembering what God has done. He finishes with: “Though the fig tree
should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines… yet I will rejoice in the Lord;
I will take joy in the God of my salvation. God, the Lord, is my strength…”
(Hab. 3:17-19).
When it comes to learning to “live as one who’s been
forgiven,” it takes a constant rehearsal of what God has done and what He has
promised to do. I probably repeat this theme quite often in my blogs, but that’s
because I find it so hard to practice in daily life, and I’m sure I’m not the
only one. I guess that’s why Scripture so often tells us to remember—through the
daily or weekly gathering of believers, through communion, and through the
annual holy days such as Easter. God knows how difficult it is for us to
remember, so He provides opportunities for us to remind one another.
May this Easter be one of remembering the past with
gratitude, celebrating our current forgiveness, and joyfully anticipating the
future.
“‘He is not here, but
has risen. Remember how He told you, while He was still in Galilee, that the
Son of Man must be delivered into the hands of sinful men and be crucified and
on the third day rise.’ And they remembered His words” (Luke 24:6-7).